Frustration!

I have been pretty much brain dead the last couple of weeks, I keep losing things (in my brain) and have felt really worthless as far as getting anything done, because I just titter around and when my brain are finally able to accomplish anything, it's bedtime...

I had hopes though, that this week that would change. Because then we would be all at work (except for 4 days, that would be the first time this year) but no.

Last Thursday the boss gave one person leave to go to camp for 2 weeks. I wasn't arguing, but disliking. We cannot argue so to speak, she would have gone anyway.

Today the boss says one person have to go to another work station because the person attending that is on sick-leave for three weeks.

That leaves me and the one working 80% here. We both have young kids (albeit hers is 1,5 years older than pup) and... Yeah. It won't make it less heavy than when we were two working 100% and one working 50-60% (it comes down to 180% vs 260% before, aka half the workforce...)

I want to hit something! HARD! I have lacked the energy for my training (coaxing myself to at least go once a week under threat of violence) and it feels, my body is complaining about my heavy work when there is nothing to make the muscles work a different way and thus giving them ease. FUCK! Yup, it comes down to that kind of language. I really hate being short on staff, and this isn't even because "my" staff is sick... Fuck fuck fuck. I had really hoped for, and seriously needed, the ease and energy I hoped the lessened work load would bring.